My life was so great. I didt anything. I had everything. I was dying inside but i could rely on myself. I wanted a family. So i had jacob. But i dont have that. The so called family that im supposed to have i dont. I push everyone away bc i have been so hurt that i cant stand to even have a personal conversation with people, they say mhmmm and keep going. Im dying inside. I hate my life. Im so tired of hearing you been through worse. I promised myself i would never go through that again. Everything is falling apart. I never been so unhappy bc the one thing i truly want i cant have. I just want to pack everything and take a flight. It wouldnt be hard. But not without my only one. I made a mistake.