HIPPY LOVE
music. madness. LOVE
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dont say it…
i want to say this so bad but i know that i cant. just keep it together dominique. so im going to say it tumblr. addison i dont believe that you want to be friends with me. i think you only want me for your personal pleasure. you dont want to genuinely get to know me. you only want to hear what you want. you dont want to know how fucked up i am. now lets get one thing straight. i dont want to date u. nope. i barely know u. althought you are my type physically, your personality i dont care too much for. we barely have anything in common. i want you to disappear and yet i dont want you to ever leave. i want you to stop messaging me and yet i dont. conflict.
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today…
today as usual i ditched school. i was supposed to hangout with my friend hailey but she had too much homework or whatever the fuck she said. went on facebook. no response from addison. a couple weeks i used to get them everyday… i guess you got me. today i posted on facebook that “you make me not believe in love anymore”. something i thought of myself because be lectured for the 20th time this morning i dont believe in anything anymore. this is mad depressing. so now im just listening to mac miller sending resumes to jobs. i dont want to depend on anyone. just my job and myself. i just want some fucking peace and happiness but thats not gonna happen. i hate myself. i hate my life. i love everyone in my life and hate them at the same time. i dont feel the same way abt myself. theres no love or self respect myself. just hate.
